I guess the whole update day thing has finished, huh?
I wanted to keep up with it so much, but I just not diciplined enough sadly. Also there's the issue with not knowing what to say every thursday - my life is pretty slow and not much happens, so I tend to struggle to come up with something to say each thursday. Well, I'm here now, typing, although I actually have something to do real soon, so you'll have to wait until I get back before you get to read the rest. Well, I suppose not, since you'll be reading this after I've finished typing it all, but still. Also, after learning a little more Japanese... Phew, English uses a lot of pronouns, doesn't it? I, I, I, it, it, it, constantly, over and over throughout every sentence. I've only ever started to notice it now, lol.
Aaaaaaanyway...
I just got out of the shower, and feel a lot more clean. It's actually been quite a while since I've had a shower... I've always struggled with personal hygiene due to self-loathing, so I'm actually a very stinky girl! But not right this minute though, lol. Give it... a few days.
A week.
I am a stinky girl.
If you follow me on youtube or masto or whatever you'll have seen I've been a little bit more active. I've been trying to do a little more shitposting on mastodon, and more streaming - actually I've submitted a run to a speedrunning marathon, Fastest Furs! This is a pretty huge leap for me, actually, but I don't really want to write about it at the moment. Who knows, maybe it won't get accepted? Either way, regardless of the marathon, I have been speedrunning a romhack of Sonic the Hedgehog 1 that changes the character to Blaze the Cat, and I have really been enjoying it! Her addeded abilities have allowed me to have fun with the original speedrun route for Sonic 1 and also add my own additions to it, which has been really fun. I've been trying to upload my PBs to my YouTube as I get them, so you can check them out there, I suppose.
I guess I've been doing a little bit of drawing recently, too. Nothing too interesting, I think I've posted the most interesting ones I have done on my Mastodon? I wanna get back into drawing - I dont have very high goals or aspirations; just that I can express my characters in a cute way that can at least tell a simple story. I've been focusing on chibi a lot more because of this. Hopefully I can get the hang of it!ok this is the part that the title is about
Alright, so here's the bit I actually wanna write down. I don't really know what to call the sensation I had, perhaps a severe case of deja vu or something, but it's worth noting that I was suuuuuper high. Really really high. I mean there's smoking weed normally, but I was... Absent. Sometimes I joke and say that I'm on Jupiter or something, but really I'm just a bit spaced out, but if there was anyone who could have a good guess as to what the surface of Jupiter actually looked like, it was probably me, a few days ago. I was blazed, and having a nice evening, me and Lulu were cooped up on the sofa as usual and we were playing a long game of Mario Party 4. Mario Party 4 is an alright game to play while high but honestly I would just skip it if you had the choice. ...Anyway. In the turn order, I was last, and the minigame had just finished, starting the next turn, so I knew I had a bunch of time until I needed to input an action. I'm pretty sure there were only a few turns left anyway, so I didn't have much reason to be involved in that moment. ... So, I'm used to auditory hallucinations when I'm high - they tend to be very weak, certain noises I can't hear usually in music, or I can hear the music that I have inside my own head, that kind of thing. But this one was... Something. It started out weak, like, I could hear something moving around, but... Really quietly. Echoing, maybe, but as I said, I was high and I am used to these things by now.
I'm less used to it when it starts to manifest in another senses. The sounds around me started to feel more distinct, and vivid imagery started to blend together and form shape within my own head. I think, technically, hyperphantasia is the word for it, but I really don't know for sure. Either way, the rustling of clothing, metals moving and jingling became apparent to me, the image burning my minds eye showed me a dark room; not unpleasantly so? It was clearly underground, or at least some sort of dungeon setting, but the place didn't look or feel particularly unplesant. What did catch my 'eye' was the green, scaled tail moving around in my peripheral vision, but not quite in view. As this sensation went on, I did start to question what I was seeing; I mentioned earlier that I had been practising art again recently. A concept I often struggle with is how someone can picture something before drawing it. Like, getting that vision in their mind and then keeping it there while they construct that image in the real world, via drawing or whatever? It's crazy. ...I know drawing isn't ACTUALLY like that, but there is an element of moving what is in your head onto a page.
Was that what this was?
It didn't seem to make sense though - the image in my head moved, bobbed around. This was the point where I was pretty much absent in the real world. 'In my own world' maybe is the saying. Either way, I had zoned into whatever was happening in my own head. The head inside my vision had rested onto the shoulder of the greenscaled lizardman whom was shuffling around. Her arms, legs, tail, were all wrapped around said lizardman, and it became very clear to me that these two lizardfolk were breeding. The sensation of rocking back and forth became more and more real, which was probably just Lulu moving her foot back and forth (we say she is "wagging her tail"), but my head had its fun with it. I felt my pussy burn fiercly as I... imagined(?) these two lizardfolks rutting away, the green males noises becoming more audible with each passing movement, clenching around the throbbing lizard dick that... Wasn't in MY pussy, but he was stuffing it in, and deep. A green scaled hand wrapped around the throat I had in my head and pushed it back as his thrusts seem to come to a halt, but in that moment I noticed something, a reflection perhaps he blinked and I caught his eye, or a flash of metal somewhere, some jewelry...? But I saw the reflection of the female lizardfolk, and through that, her eye - A big, green jewel, with the smallest hint of a dark brown dashed around the outside. Perhaps it was thousands of thousands of years in either direction, I don't know, but in that fraction of a moment I starred into my own eye for what felt like an eternity - until a very grounding voice (thank you!) greeted me back to earth:
"I think we will get more coins if we go that way. What do you think?"
I blinked and looked over at Lulu. What felt like an eternity was just mere moments. I've had moments like this before, but this one that thrown me for it's intensity. In any case, I smiled and said "Sorry, I was just on Jupiter, haha", but this time made a mental note to write about it later. ... And then I went back to playing Mario Party 4. My pussy was abit wet tho.TL;DR I imagined two lizards fucking and jammed my ego centric self into there like all humans like to
Well that's about all I have to write about at the moment... There have been a few other things going on - I discovered all my old music. Aaaall of it. Uploaded to a Soundcloud. It was pretty wild, but I don't have much to say about it. It inspired me to make music again, and I've been listening to a lot of breakcore recently. Seems like a perfect place to start again. Yeah, yknow those girls you see on those breakcore mixes? All depressed with knotted hair and black eyes? That's me. And Lulu. Maybe if I can be assed to draw that, you'll see it here.
Oh, and as always! Stay cool, like a swimming pool♥
