The past few weeks have been... A little more interesting than usual, I think?
Last time I updated the blog, I talked about a hallucinatory experience with two lizardfolk having intercourse (I was going to say passionate intercourse, but I'm not too sure if that is the correct word - but I digress), and since then I decided it was time to bring a lizard fursona back into my life. Coming full circle perhaps? I think about just say that about everything these days - but my first fursona was a lizard girl, and those who know me a little better will know that I was a dragon otherkin way before I was in the furry fandom. I felt like it would be good for me.
What I didn't expect was a spurt of creativity to come with that. How cool!
I went with a Kobold girl - they're basically mini lizards with dragonlike features, but they worship dragons! I always enjoyed looking at art not just of them having sex with their masters or mistresses, but also cleaning their scales, horns, teeth, brushing around them and keeping their horde organized - I love it so much!! It's so cute! I themed her around what I managed to see of that lizard girl that one time, sandy white scales with dark brown markings. It was tempting to try and go further than that, but I felt that I didn't want to. I feel like her features were more sepentine than dragon-like, but on the off chance she does exist, I would not want to offend her.
That was probably the funniest thing I've written in complete seriousness... Ever.
==== Editors note - This next section was written while really fucking high. ====
I know ive put a warning above but I think Im being a little bit dramatic. Annyway, Ive always enjoyed drawing dragons, so I feel like I have more of an affinity with their shapes and curves and...whatever. But I was still really surprised that I drew a few pictures of my Kobold girl that I was pleased with! I've had a lot of fun drawing her, and that's felt really positive. I'm looking forwards to drawing more. I've switched to her as my 'main' fursona for now, (still called Midna. Fox Midna is renamed to Kitsumidna) and I've found a VRChat model that represents her very well, so I might even enjoy VR a little bit more! ... Maybe. From what I remember, last time (not ACTUALLY the last time) I was in VRChat someone laughed at my voice, so I don't like talking much in there. Maybe I'll get over that.
Speaking of VRChat however, while I was exploring some VRChat worlds in said avatar, since it was a Kobold... I was quite small. At first I thought it would be funny so I didn't change my height. And then after about 30 minutes? I was enjoying it. I can't quite put my finger on what exactly I enjoyed, but I was having fun navigating small steps and standing next to small objects and looking up at them. Because they were larger than me. ...heh. This is a slippery slope. Maybe a discovery about myself, maybe not. Stay tuned, I guess.
Pokemon TCG Pocket
This is another huge thing I wanted to talk about! I've always wanted to be involved in Pokemon TCG stuff - you're probably aware if youre reading this, but Pokemon is a special interest. However, Im poor, and will probably always be poor, so getting involved in TCGs is difficult, but Pokemon is damn near impossible ever since it became a hot spot for capitalism.
So ive been pretty excited for the release of the TCG Pocket game, as a way for me to also enjoy collecting the cards. And the new mobile game really, really scratched the itch. They have clearly put a lot of effort into the act of recieving and collecting the cards - opening the packs feels super fun! I look forwards to opening my booster packs throughout the day, and yes, while I know that is what the Pokemon Company wants us all to be doing... I'm just going to relax for once and let myself enjoy SOMETHING. lol.
This game has also encouraged me to upload YouTube videos again! I had a funny idea to record myself opening the booster packs while high, and I sorta got carried away and (so far) have recorded a video every 12 hours of me opening packs. No one has really watched or commented on them, but for once, I don't care - I'm just having fun creating stuff, even if its shitty videos while I'm high.
I also decided that I would record them in Japanese for practice. I've only done a few, but I was really happy with how they came out, and how simple it felt to speak Japanese sentences. Honestly, it was my first time trying to actually... Speak sentences in Japanese. I think I've come a long way, but I still think I should know more given how long I have been studying...
Anyway, if you wanna see the playlist of these videos, its... here!
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLf2k_DrGbaJNLK9L22p_VP9wuqbFPjyzE
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I wanted to talk about something cute Luna did for a second. Yknow, back when this happened, I wanted to write about this, but I was going to weave it into something else. I've... Completely forgotten what that is. But, I wanted to write it, and I know she reads these blog posts, so let's go!
We have been playing Sonic X Shadow Generations together. I don't plan on reviewing any video games here, but I was really, really impressed. Me and Luna have has a LOT of fun playing it, and will probably play it later tonight, too.
With that said, we were playing through the original Sonic Generations together, and we reached Planet Wisp. Luna hasn't played Sonic Colours, but obviously as a Sonic fan has heard all about it from... Literally everyone, lol. It's a really cool level, to be fair. So she seemed pretty exicted to play it. When she is experiencing something new it's always fun to watch - and this time was just the same, she was amazed by how pretty the world was, with its green fields and huge looming trees. Of course, Doctor Eggman is cutting down said trees and harvesting the planet for... uh, energy, or something. It's been a while since I played. But when getting into the level a bit more and seeing all the machinery, she said something that caught me a little bit off guard;
"What, there's loads of buzzsaws everywhere! They're destroying everything. Is this Eggmans doing?"
Just for a moment, I thought there was a Sonic character in the room with me, her response to the games world was so... Honest? I can't put my finger on it, but it reminded me of why I enjoy playing games with her so much. She's very cool.
A (online) friend of mine deleted me from discord, telling me that they were going to take their own life. This isn't the first time this has happened to me, but it was shocking all the same. I understand that there is nothing I can do... They were a reletively new friend, but someone I (and luna) were becoming pretty fond of. However due to that, we didn't know too much about them. Either way... I hope for the best for them. I really do. I wonder if I could have done more?
Obviously we've all heard about orange man. I don't live in America, but still feel defeated about it. I actually don't want to talk about this too much. I dislike talking about politics. Unfortunately, politics is never just politics. Even genocide, is considered politics, to a lot of people. Talking about whether we should allow certain people to exist, is considered politics. I'm rewriting this section over and over, so I'm clearly struggling to communicate on this topic, so I will cut to the chase.
After seeing the world vote for facism once more, I feel like my faith in the people outside is at rock bottom. So many people are trying to flee, so many disabled people are saying that they can't flee. These feelings are strong and heavy, and hard to deal with. Obviously, with difficult feelings like those, it's very tempting to self harm. I grabbed my knife and sat down with some music, but as I pushed the serrated edge into my skin to start the cut, I pulled it back and put the knife away.
Cutting my body is my own decision - but I will never shed my own blood with that man in my head.
He is not worthy.
Anyway, I did some testing, and it turns out I can attach videos to blog posts! As I have been recording all of these booster pack openings in beautiful, beautiful 360p, it won't take up barely any space either, which I'm weirdly proud of. I don't know why. Can you be proud of video resolutions? Beats me - but either way, I've handpicked one of my episodes of 'open your Boosters, bitCHEs' to go with this blog post! I wanted to show the one where I got the Charizard EX, but that was before I was using the seperate microphone, so the recording isn't great.
Oh well. I hope you enjoy what I have in store anyway. And of course, as always -
Stay cool, like a swimming pool ♥